HELP!

Okay... so I need to use this blog because I need some help, but I don't want the whole world or ward knowing. I had a run in tonight with someone. I said some things that I should not have said, but I am afraid it may have ruined a friendship. I should have just kept my mouth shut like advised to do so, but when I feel strongly about something I usually don't. Any suggestion on what I should do or if I should just let it be.
Amber

A Little Nervous

So, I'm April. Hi. I'm 10 weeks pregnant, and having pretty bad cramps. I'm not having any spotting or bleeding or any symptoms of any kind of UTI or bladder infection, so I called the on-call doctor today to find out what he thought. I have what's called an "irritable uterus" where I have Braxton Hicks contractions for much of my pregnancy, but the doctor said that I wouldn't start with that until atleast week 16 of my pregnancy, so I'm supposed to go in on monday or tuesday for an ultrasound to make sure my pregnancy isn't ectopic. I was already worried about having cramps, but now I'm even more nervous. I never even thought of the possibility of an ectopic pregnancy. My husband is always telling me that I'm making "April mountains" out of molehills, and I really hope that this is the case here. I hope that I'm just overly nervous about a small amount of cramps and it turns out to be nothing. It's not very often that I HOPE that my husband is right, but this time I wouldn't begrudge him his victory.

A slight Change

I've had such a great response to this blog that I wanted to open it up and have it on all women-related topics and not just infertility. Because that is just a small portion of what makes us who we are, we're also sisters, mothers, daughters and friends. We can pull together with anything we'd like to share and uplift eachother.

Hello everyone!! I started this blog as a way to support other women who are going through or have gone through infertility issues. I thought we could start off by telling our stories and giving a little bit of history so we all start out knowing a little more about each other.

Here's my story:

I have 2 beautiful sons that are my world. My problem is more an indirect fertility issue. I can get pregnant but once I'm pregnant the drama begins. The moment I become pregnant a sever form of hyperemesis gravidarum which is basically violent morning sickness to the point that I'm hospitalized and losing weight rapidly begins.

6 PICC lines, countless hospital stays, 2 times septic, 1 stroke scare, 3 failed epidurals & 2 failed spinals which led to 1 spinal migraine, 8 days radioactive and in ICU unable to hold my newborn, 6 months of bed rest,18 month post-baby recovery, 75 gained pounds later I've come to terms with the fact that my body's not meant to have children. That doesn't mean I can't be a mother again.

It's taken me 3 years to come to terms with this and I'm actually having my tubes tied in the next few weeks to make it official. It's the hardest thing I've ever dealt with. Everyone in my life is supportive but they really don't understand. It's not that I'm not grateful for the children I do have in my life but it was a mourning process for the children I can never "have" and the nice happy pregnancy I'll never experience. There are still days when I see some happy pregnant lady at the store or a newborn at church that I get that pain in my heart. I don't think it'll ever go away but having friends like you can help me notice it less and less!!